
Change
by Jo Clayton
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In the hollow the Ouloud had dug into the lake shore's hardened mud, damp
dripped slowly from fine root hairs feathering the irregular ceiling, droplets
crawling down the roots, clinging for a last moment to the blunt tips,
dropping finally into the emptiness below with sometimes sharp tings if they
fell into the deepening puddle, sometimes hard rattles as they hit the dead
husk of the hibernating Ouloud. The tap-slap-ting continued uninterrupted as
the pool around the husk rose higher and higher until at last the drops no
longer fell on husk or mud, fell only on water. A sharp crack jarred through
the plinks. A line of blue-white light shimmered in the muddy water. The husk
moved, lay still, moved again in short sharp jerks, lay still again, again
jolted about as the crack widened. The cold light strengthened in the hollow,
winking back from silicate crystals in the dirt and shining through the
agitated water onto the pale roots. Her back and buttocks out, the Ouloud
rested again, then with one convulsive heave, she kicked free of the husk and
straightened her cramped limbs. Her eyes were sealed shut, dark smudges behind
translucent lids. Her head was studded with hundreds of small nodules, the
tight-coiled threads inside writhing and pressing against skin still too soft
and thick for them to burst through. Skeleton and pulsing organs and the
Daughter Within were dim shadows in fleshlike milk glass lit by her
self-generated radiance.
Like a great worm she wriggled up the slippery mud to the highest point
of the hollow and began scratching blindly at the plug of packed earth that
sealed her in. At first her hands scrabbled over the cold soil without effect,
then her fingers broadened and grew harder until they were deep gouges that
bit into the plug and tore away great gouts of earth.
When she burst from the hollow, she crouched on the steep slope of the
lake shore, blind head turning slowly from side to side, shape-shifting hands
groping clumsily at the night air until she lost the sense of where she was
and tumbled in an awkward sprawl into the water.
Passively she accepted the embrace of the snowmelt, sinking until she
floated a dozen feet below the surface; she let the currents nudge her where
they would until she came to rest against a rocky islet near the lake's outlet
where a creek tumbled downslope over a spray of boulders.
The sky began to gray, a red line spread along the eastern horizon.
The slow process of waking went on; the Ouloud's skin hardening and
thinning, her metabolism speeding up.
When sunlight touched her face, she stirred, opened her eyes, her
ice-gray irids darkening to the color of wetted stone. Webs spread between
lengthening fingers. Gills opened on neck and chest. She breathed her first
breath and began swimming, aimlessly at first, then she became aware of
hunger. She snatched a fish, tore it into small bits, held them in her
toothless mouth while her digestive juices liquefied them.
The day continued to brighten. She stopped swimming and floated upright
in the center of the lake, her head a dozen feet below the surface, waiting
with plantlike patience for the moment of ripeness.
When the sun was directly overhead, shimmering down to her through the
clear cold water, her cilia burst from their nodules, springing out from her