
“Comb out my hair and send a message to Lord Arai to say I will visit him directly.”
IT was almost completely dark by the time they left the women’s rooms and went toward the main guest
rooms where Arai and his men were staying. Lights gleamed from the temple, and farther up slope,
beneath the trees, men stood with flaring torches around Lord Shigeru’s grave. Even at this hour people
came to visit it, bringing incense and offerings, placing lamps and candles on the ground around the stone,
seeking the help of the dead man who every day became more of a god to them.
He sleeps beneath a covering of jtame, Kaede thought, herself praying silently to Shigeru’s spirit for
guidance, while she pondered what she should say to Arai. She was the heir to both Shirakawa and
Maru-yama; she knew Arai would be seeking some strong alliance with her, probably some marriage
that would bind her into the power he was amassing. They had spoken a few times during her stay at
Inuyama, and again on the journey, but Arai’s attention had been taken up with securing the countryside
and his strategies for the future. He had not shared these with her, beyond expressing his desire for the
Otori marriage to take place. Once—a lifetime ago, it seemed now—she had wanted to be more than a
pawn in the hands of the warriors who commanded her fate. Now, with the newfound strength that the
icy sleep had given her, she resolved again to take control of her life. / need time, she thought. I must do
nothing rashly. I must go home before I make any decisions.
One of Arai’s men—she remembered his name was Niwa— greeted her at the veranda’s edge and led
her to the doorway. The shutters all stood open. Arai sat at the end of the room, three of his men next to
him. Niwa spoke her name and the warlord looked up at her. For a moment they studied each other. She
held his gaze and felt powers strong pulse in her veins. Then she dropped to her knees and bowed to
him, resenting the gesture yet knowing she had to appear to submit.
He returned her bow, and they both sat up at the same time.
Kaede felt his eyes on her. She raised her head and gave him the same unflinching look. He could not
meet it. Her heart was pounding at her audacity. In the past she had both liked and trusted the man in
front of her. Now she saw changes in his face. The lines had deepened around his mouth and eyes. He
had been both pragmatic and flexible, but now he was in the grip of his intense desire for power.
Not far from her parents’ home, the Shirakawa flowed through vast limestone caves where the water had
formed pillars and statues. As a child she was taken there every year to worship the goddess who lived
within one of these pillars under the mountain. The statue had a fluid, living shape, as though the spirit that
dwelt within were trying to break out from beneath the covering of lime. She thought of that stone
covering now. Was power a limy river calcifying those who dared to swim in it?
Arai’s physical size and strength made her quail inwardly, reminding her of that moment of helplessness in
Iida’s arms, of the strength of men who could force women in any way they wanted. Never let them use
that strength, came the thought, and then: Always he armed. A taste came into her mouth, as sweet as
persimmon, as strong as blood: the knowledge and taste of power. Was this what drove men to clash
endlessly with each other, to enslave and destroy each other? Why should a woman not have that too?
She stared at the places on Arai’s body where the needle and the knife had pierced Iida, had opened him
up to the world he’d tried to dominate and let his life’s blood leak away. I must never forget it, she told
herself. Men also can he killed by women. I killed the most powerful warlord in the Three
Countries.
All her upbringing had taught her to defer to men, to submit to their will and their greater intelligence.
Her heart was beating so strongly, she thought she might faint. She breathed deeply, using the skills
Shizuka had taught her, and felt the blood settle in her veins.