
Pot calling the kettle black, anyone? Rowan sighed, blew the tension out between pursed lips.
“Sorry.” I don't sound sorry at all. “Really, Cath. I am."
The short, muscled girl shrugged, the chain at her belt jingling. Her violet eyes turned cool. “You're
worrying about him again, aren't you?"
Well, you get the grand prize for stating the obvious. But guilt pricked at her. Cath didn't deserve her
ire. “Shouldn't I? It's been three months.” Rowan stripped her gloves off, tossed them down on the CD
player. “He's trapped somewhere, Cath. Sigma's got him."
"He'll come back for you.” The girl sounded certain. “I mean, he said he would, didn't he?"
Don't remind me, Rowan thought, and set her jaw. “I'm sorry,” she repeated. “I'd better get cleaned up
if Henderson wants me. Thanks for telling me."
"There, that's the Ro I know.” Cath grinned. The change was startling, a flash of how she would look
without all the metal. “I'll meet you for jump-off. Cool?"
I'm not cool at all, Cath. I'm about two steps away from very, very uncool. “Chilly cool."
The girl bounced out of the small room. Rowan looked down at the futon folded in the corner. No books
and no plants, because they had to move every few weeks. Nothing but her kitbag and some clothes,
and the never-ending tension. And Sigma always yapping at their heels.
Rowan sighed, shutting her eyes. Her hands hurt inside the padded gloves, her shoulders twinged, her
legs and lungs burned both from the side kicks she'd been practicing and her morning bout on the
treadmill. The place where Justin should be inside her head was empty and aching, and her mind kept
circling it like a tongue poking at a toothache. A phantom limb, phantom pain. If he was able to come
back, he would have by now.
She tossed the gloves over on the futon and worked the ponytail holder free of her wet, clinging hair. I'd
better get cleaned up, Henderson wants me. Probably to try and talk me out of it. She headed for
the bathroom, rubbing under her sweat-soaked hair and grimacing. She should have dyed it. The
ash-blond mane was too distinctive by far. Even Cath had gotten rid of her trademark Mohawk, but
Rowan couldn't bring herself to dye her hair.
That would be like admitting Justin was really gone. Like admitting she was on her own. As if I'm some
idiot of a fainting maiden who keeps waiting for her man to come back. He cometh not, she said
wearily, as she looked from her tower window.
Her mood was getting worse and worse; she was even irritating herself. She kept breathing, deep down
into her stomach, trying for calm.
The shower warmed up quickly, and she ducked under the water and started scrubbing. She only had a
few minutes before the General wanted her. No time to luxuriate in the hot water.
Ten minutes later, she pulled the white cotton tank top down and zipped up her jeans, tossing her wet
hair back over her shoulder. She'd braid it in the comm room. She attached her shoulder holster,
checked her Glock, and shrugged on her hip-length leather coat. The knife went in her boot, and she
scooped up her kitbag, the canvas messenger bag that held an operative's toys and tricks, settling it so
the strap ran diagonally across her body. She turned the CD player off and paused, looking around the
bare white room.
If Justin was here, he'd stop by the door and smile at me, ask if I was ready. She shivered,