
drinking and driving. Aren't you the one that thinks strong health messages
are a good thing?"
Our eyes lock. The silence lengthens. Finally Ceci says, "Well,
haven't _we_ gotten serious all of a sudden."
I say, "Murder is serious."
"Yes. I'm sure the cops will catch whoever did it. Probably one of
those scum that hang around the Rainbow Bar."
"Dr. Bennett wasn't the type to hang around with scum."
"Oh, I don't mean he _knew_ them. Some low-life probably killed him
for his wallet." She looks straight into my eyes. "I can't think of any
other motive. Can you?"
I look east, toward the river. On the other side, just visible over
the tops of houses on its little hill, rise the three stories of Emerton
Soldiers and Sailors Memorial Hospital. The bridge over the river was blown
up three weeks ago. No injuries, no suspects. Now anybody who wants to go to
the hospital has to drive ten miles up West River Road and cross at the
interstate. Jack told me that the Department of Transportation says two years
to get a new bridge built.
I say, "Dr. Bennett was a good doctor. And a good man."
"Well, did anybody say he wasn't? Really, Betty, you should use your
dryer and save yourself all that bending and stooping. Bad for the back.
We're not getting any younger. Ta-ta." She waves her right hand, just a
waggle of fingers, and walks off. Her nails, I notice, are painted the
delicate fragile pinky white of freshly unscabbed skin.
* * * *
"You have no proof," Jack says. "Just some wild suspicions."
He has his stubborn face on. He sits with his Michelob at the kitchen
table, dog-tired from his factory shift plus three hours overtime, and he
doesn't want to hear this. I don't blame him. I don't want to be saying it.
In the living room Jackie plays Nintendo frantically, trying to cram in as
many electronic explosions as she can before her father claims the TV for
Monday night football. Sean has already gone out with his friends, before his
stepfather got home.
I sit down across from Jack, a fresh mug of coffee cradled between my
palms. For warmth. "I know I don't have any proof, Jack. I'm not some
detective."
"So let the cops handle it. It's their business, not ours. You stay
out of it."
"I am out of it. You know that." Jack nods. We don't mix with cops,
don't serve on any town committees, don't even listen to the news much. We
don't get involved with what doesn't concern us. Jack never did. I add, "I'm
just telling you what I think. I can do that, can't I?" and hear my voice
stuck someplace between pleading and anger.
Jack hears it, too. He scowls, stands with his beer, puts his hand
gently on my shoulder. "Sure, Bets. You can say whatever you want to me.
But nobody else, you hear? I don't want no trouble, especially to you and the
kids. This ain't our problem. Just be grateful _we're_ all healthy, knock on
wood."
He smiles and goes into the living room. Jackie switches off the
Nintendo without being yelled at; she's good that way. I look out the kitchen
window, but it's too dark to see anything but my own reflection, and anyway
the window faces north, not east.
I haven't crossed the river since Jackie was born at Emerton Memorial,
seven years ago. And then I was in the hospital less than twenty-four hours
before I made Jack take me home. Not because of the infections, of course --
that hadn't all started yet. But it has now, and what if next time instead of
the youngest Nordstrum boy, it's Jackie who needs endozine? Or Sean?
Once you've been to Emerton Memorial, nobody but your family will go
near you. And sometimes not even them. When Mrs. Weimer came home from
surgery, her daughter-in-law put her in that back upstairs room and left her