
feet. Snow fell and covered me. Then the clouds drew away and a cold, cold night came. Every star
showed, and all the stardark between, and all the warmth of earth seemed to have vanished into that
void. There was a looming feeling in the night or hi me. I got up and stretched myself for a moment and
looked out over the dim ocean, feeling myself tiny in the sight of those twin eyes, sea and sky. There was
a steady lapping sound out on the far water that I could not identify. Even my nose told me nothing. All
night I sat and watched the dark water and saw nothing. I remembered such dark water from an old
woman's loom.
In the morning some instinct sent me northward a little way, and there he lay, naked, the salt spray
turning to white rime ice on him.
Frain. The Swan Lord. I did not yet know him by those names, but I knew how important he was to me,
and for a horrible moment I thought he was dead. He was lying on the hard, seawashed sand below the
high tide ledge, his red hair snarled like wrack, his face far too pale—as pale as sand and snow. But he
still breathed, I saw. I lay down right on top of him, trying to warm him with my thick fur, and at that
touch a pang of yearning made me howl aloud and the change came on me all in a moment.
It was not of my doing or deciding. These things are often awkward—I might have been of more use to
him as a wolf. But it came on me willy-nilly, amid a welter of emotions, compassion—it is the most
human of emotions—and longing—I wanted his smile,I had come all this way to meet him, to be his
friend, his human friend, it seemed… Cold is what I remember first. The day was as bitterly cold as the
night had been. Cold air and cold snow and sand—my fur was gone. I was practically hairless. How
humans were to be pitied, to be always so naked beneath their clothes, so cold! I pitied myself heartily.
My limbs shot out, long, and my heart pounded within great broad ribs. My muzzle disappeared. My
vision blurred for a moment, then righted itself, and hands waved foolishly in front of my face. I was
terrified, startled beyond telling. I sprang up to run off. But my limbs would no longer serve me wolf
fashion, and I fell over on my side, thrashing. One foot struck Frain, and he groaned.
I had hurt him. I wanted to howl again.
Instead I quieted myself, gathered my wits a moment. Then I struggled up enough to balance on one
front paw— hand. I used the other to tug and shake at him. His only reaction was to swallow. I tugged
harder, then managed to sit on my haunches and get both hands free. I graspedhim under the shoulders,
pushed with my feet and sprawled over backwards, pulling him a little farther from the sea. I wanted to
get him out of reach of the tide," though it meant dragging him into the snow. But I was barely able to
wriggle out from under him. A few more such efforts and I was exhausted.
I was very weak.I had not eaten in too long a time for a human, it seemed. And I was cold, shivering, a
horrible, strange sensation to me. I felt terribly afraid. I would freeze, we would both freeze, unless I
found us help— tried to rise on my long hind legs, to walk man fashion. I fell. Again I tried, and again I
fell, and again and again. I gave in and tried to go on four legs, but all my speed and grace and strength
had left me; I could go no better than a snail. The nearest dwelling might be miles… Despair washed over
me like an incoming tide, and I bowed my head to the ground. This bond brother I had found, I was
failing him in every way. I could not carry him to shelter, and I had no longer even any fur to warm him. I
had thought that once we were together all things would come to rights, but we were naked, helpless, no
better than mewling babes. I whimpered like the babe in its basket back at Laueroc. Then I whined
dismally. Finally I raised my head and gave forth with a longdrawn, loud and woebegone howl.
And from the distance an answering shout came.
Trevyn. I should have known he would be anxious, that he would be searching for me, babe or no
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