
seedlings and-imagine my stupefaction! Row upon row of big well-grown plants
stretched away as far as the eye could see, heavy with scarlet fruit.
Well-watered, weeded, cared for by someone. Me? I swear I can't recall, nor
does my internal chronometer record any unusual forward
movement; but something, my world or me, is slipping out of time's proper
flow.
What does it mean, such strangeness? Some slow deterioration of consciousness?
Supposedly impossible in a perfectly designed immortal. But then, I'm not
quite mechanically sound, am I? I'm a Crome generator, one of those aberrant
creatures the mortals call psychic, or second-sighted. I'm the only one on
whom the Company ever conferred immortality, and I'll bet they're sorry now.
Not that they meant to do it, of course. Somebody made a mistake when I was
being evaluated for the honor of eternal service, didn't catch the latent
flaw, and here I am like a stain in permanent ink. No way to erase me. Though
marooning me at this station has undoubtedly solved a few problems for them.
Yet my prison is actually a very nice place, quite the sort of spot I'd choose
to live, if I'd ever had a choice: utterly isolated, beautifully green, silent
in all its valleys and looming mountains, even the sea hushed where it breaks
and jumps up white on the windward cliffs.
Only one time was there ever noise, terrible sounds that echoed off the
mountains. I hid indoors all that day, paced with my hands over my ears,
hummed to myself to shut out the tumult. At least it was over in a few hours.
I have never yet ventured back over into Silver Canyon to see if the little
people there are all dead. I knew what would happen to them when I sent that
signal, alerting Dr. Zeus to their presence. Were they refugees from Company
persecution? Did I betray them? Well-more blood on my soul. I was only
following orders, of course.
(Which is another reason I don't mind being an old field slave here, you see.
Where else should I be? I've been responsible for the deaths of seven mortal
men and unknown numbers of whatever those little pale things were.)
What the eyes can't see, the heart doesn't grieve over, isn't that what they
say? And no eyes can see me here, that's for sure, if I generate the blue
radiation that accompanies a fit of visions, or do some other scary and
supposedly impossible thing like move through time spontaneously. I am far too
dangerous to be allowed to run around loose, I know. Am I
actually a defective! Will my fabulous cyborg super-intelligence begin to
wane? It might be rather nice, creeping oblivion. Perhaps even death will
become possible. But the Company has opted to hide me rather than study me, so
there's no way to tell.
I have done well, for a cast-off broken tool. Arriving, I crawled from my
transport box with just about nothing but the prison uniform I wore. Now I
have a comfortable if somewhat amateurish house I built myself, over long
years, with a kitchen of which I am particularly proud. The fireplace draws
nicely, and the little sink is supplied by a hand pump drawing on the well I
drilled. I have a tin tub in my back garden, in which I bathe. Filled before
midday heat rises, the water is reasonably warm by nightfall, and serves to
water the lawn afterward. So very tidy, this life I've built.
Do I lack for food and drink? No indeed. I grow nearly everything I consume.
About all I receive from the Company anymore are its shipments of Proteus
brand synthetic protein.
(Lately the Proteus only seems to come in the assortment packs, four flavors:
Breakfast Bounty, Delicate and Savory, Hearty Fare, and Marina. The first two
resemble pork and/or chicken or veal, and are comparatively inoffensive. I
quite like Hearty Fare. It makes the best damned tamale filling I've ever
found. Marina, on the other hand, is an unfortunate attempt to simulate
seafood. It goes straight into my compost heap, where it most alarmingly fails
to decompose. There has been no response to my requests for a change, but this
is a prison, after all.)
Have I written that before, about the Proteus? I have a profound sense of deja
vu reading it over, and paused just now to thumb back through the book to see