'The Major, standing over there by the fireplace,' said his hostess, 'with his elbow on the
mantel, a most ungainly pose if you should ask me, is not happy with my lemonade. He would prefer
a stronger drink. Please, Mr. Rand, will you not taste my lemonade? I assure you it is good. I
made it myself. I have no maid, you see, and no one in the kitchen. I live quite by myself and
satisfactorily, although my friends keep dropping in, sometimes more often than I like.'
He tasted the lemonade, not without misgivings, and to his surprise it was lemonade and was
really good, like the lemonade he had drunk when a boy at Fourth of July celebrations and at grade
school picnics, and had never tasted since.
'It is excellent,' he said.
'The lady in blue,' his hostess said, 'sitting in the chair by the window, lived here many
years ago. She and I were friends, although she moved away some time ago and I am surprised that
she comes back, which she often does. The infuriating thing is that I cannot remember her name, if
I ever knew it. You don't know it, do you?'
'I am afraid I don't.'
'Oh, of course, you wouldn't. I had forgotten. I forget so easily these days. You are a new
arrival.'
He had sat through the afternoon and drank her lemonade and eaten her cookies, while she
chattered on about her nonexistent guests. It was only when he had crossed the street to the house
she had pointed out as his, with her standing on the stoop and waving her farewell, that he
realized she had not told him her name. He did not know it even now.
How long had it been? He wondered, and realized he didn't know. It was this autumn business.
How could a man keep track of time when it was always autumn?
It all had started on that day when he'd been driving across Iowa, heading for Chicago. No, he
reminded himself, it had started with the thinnesses, although he had paid little attention to the
thinnesses to begin with. Just been aware of them, perhaps as a strange condition of the mind, or
perhaps an unusual quality to the atmosphere and light. As if the world lacked a certain solidity
that one had come to expect, as if one were running along a mystic borderline between here and
somewhere else.
He had lost his West Coast job when a government contract had failed to materialize. His
company had not been the only one; there were many other companies that were losing contracts and
there were a lot of engineers who walked the streets bewildered. There was a bare possibility of a
job in Chicago, although he was well aware that by now it might be filled. Even if there were no
job, he reminded himself, he was in better shape than a lot of other men. He was young and single,
he had a few dollars in the bank, he had no house mortgage, no car payments, no kids to put
through school. He had only himself to support - no family of any sort at all. The old, hard-
fisted bachelor uncle who had taken him to raise when his parents had died in a car crash and had
worked him hard on that stony hilly Wisconsin farm, had receded deep into the past becoming a dim,
far figure that was hard to recognize. He had not liked his uncle, Rand remembered - had not hated
him, simply had not liked him. He had shed no tears, he recalled, when the old man had been caught
out in a pasture by a bull and gored to death. So now Rand was quite alone, not even holding the
memories of a family.
He had been hoarding the little money that he had, for with a limited work record, with other
men better qualified looking for the jobs, he realized that it might be some time before he could
connect with anything. The beat-up wagon that he drove had space for sleeping, and he stopped at
the little wayside parks along the way to cook his meals.
He had almost crossed the state, and the road had started its long winding through the bluffs
that rimmed the Mississippi. Ahead he caught a glimpse, at several turnings of the road, of
smokestacks and tall structures that marked the city just ahead.
He emerged from the bluffs, and the city before him, a small industrial center that lay on
either side the river. It was then that he felt and saw (if one could call it seeing) the thinness
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