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Paul had been whistling happily, whenever he had the breath for it, during the whole
confused battle in which he had killed a man and demolished a Programmed Person. He was still
whistling happily when he was in flight in Foreman's spacecraft; and none of those in the melee
(except the ansel) had any idea what he was about. And he still whistled when he was in Hopp-
Equation Space.
It breaks here. It isn't like other space. And persons and things in it aren't the same
persons and things they were before.
Astrobe is about a parsec and a half from Earth. Going at light speed it would take more
than five years to make the trip. But by Hopp-Equation Travel, it could be made in one Astrobe
month, a little less than one Earth month, about seven hundred standard hours.
Paul's craft would disappear as it traversed the parsec and a half to Earth. But, to the
pilot who made the run, it was the rest of the universe that disappeared. To him there was no
motion, no worlds or stars-really no sense of duration, or of time in passage.
Odd things happened to pilots and passengers during Hopp-Equation travel. During the
period of cosmic disappearances, Paul always became left-handed. In addition, there was always an
absolutely fundamental reversal in him. He knew from the private jokes of other pilots that this
total reversal happened to them also. There was more sniggering about this than about anything
else in space lore, for Hopp Equation travel was very new. But it happened, it happened every
time: the total reversal of polarity in a person. Man, what a reversal in polarity!
"Oh well, it's the only way I could ever sing soprano," Paul would say; and he often did
so when in this state.
Paul would cat-nap on the trip, but his state of sleep would register on the craft's
instrumentation, and he was not permitted to sleep beyond ninety seconds at one time. He became
adept at this, however. Very intricate dreams can be experienced in ninety seconds.
Paul calculated that he had at least twenty thousand of these memorable dreams during the
passage. Each was gemlike, self-contained, perfectly timed, widely different from any other. Each
was a short life of its own, many of them with large sets of characters and multitudinous
happenings, some completely gentle, some nostalgic for things never known before but clearly
remembered, some sheer horror beyond the ride of any nightmare. The Law of Conservation of Psychic
Totality will not be abridged. There were four and a half years of psychic awareness to be
compressed into
one month, and it forced its compression into these intense and rapid dreams.
There is a great lot of psychic space debris, and when one enters its area on Hopp-
Equation flight one experiences it. Every poignant thing that ever happened, every comic or
horrifying or exalting episode that ever took place, is still drifting somewhere in space. One
runs into fragments ( and concentrations) of billions of minds there; it is never lost, it is only
spread out thin.
The ansel was in many of the dreams. These creatures are psychically remarkable; they were
in the human unconscious before they were found on Astrobe.
There were flashes, in and around Paul's dreams, of his year of escapes, and of the most
recent escape at spaceport. Paul was never terrified in moments of danger. His terror came later,
in dream form, and a lot of it communicated itself on this passage. The several persons and
mechanisms who had died in that last episode were in several of the dreams; persons who have just
died are also psychically remarkable.
Paul had many dreams of a boy named Adam who died cavalierly in battle again and again,
and so avoided the misfortune of really growing up. Dying was the only thing he was really good
at. And he dreamed of Adam's sister, a childwitch who decided to go to Hell before she died. But
Paul was not sure whether he had known these two, and others previously; whether he knew them only
in these dreams; or whether he was to know them in the future. And how was it that Adam died so
many times? How did he come to life so many times? "No, no," Adam explained. "It is death, it is
death. I am not born again. I do not live again. It is always. another of the same name." Paul
dreamed of the monster Ouden; and of his own death, when it should come, knowing that he was
actually viewing it.
But it wasn't all heavy vital stuff encountered in the Passage Dreams. Some of it was
light and vital stuff. Also still drifting in deep space is every tall tale ever told.
Hey, here's one. It was of an Earthman of a few hundred years before Paul's time, John
Sourwine, or Sour John. But now Paul became Sour John and he told and lived at the same time the
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