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night. I swore to myself. I must have left the thing in the train. Will you believe me when I say that my
immediate impulse was to turn back to the station and 'do something about it'? Of course there was
nothing to be done which could not equally well be done by ringing up from the cottage. That train, with
my pack in it, must by this time be miles away.
I realise that now as clearly as you do. But at the moment it seemed perfectly obvious that I must retrace
my steps, and I had indeed begun to do so before reason or conscience awoke and set me once more
plodding forwards. In doing this I discovered more clearly than before how very little I wanted to do it.
It was such hard work that I felt as if I were walking against a headwind; but in fact it was one of those
still, dead evenings when no twig stirs, and beginning to be a little foggy.
The farther I went the more impossible I found it to think about anything except these eldila. What, after
all, did Ransom really know about them? By his own account the sorts which he had met did not usually
visit our own planet-or had only begun to do so since his return from Mars. We had eldila of our own, he
said. Tellurian eldils, but they were of a different kind and mostly hostile to man. That, in fact, was why
our world was cut off from communication with the other planets. He described us as being in a state of
siege, as being, in fact, an enemy-occupied territory, held down by eldils who were at war both with us
and with the eldils of 'Deep Heaven', or 'space'. Like the bacteria on the microscopic level, so these co-
inhabiting pests on the macroscopic permeate our whole life invisibly and are the real explanation of that
fatal bent which is the main lesson of history. If all this were true, then, of course, we should welcome
the fact that eldila of a better kind had at last broken the frontier (it is, they say, at the Moon's orbit) and
were beginning to visit us. Always assuming that Ransom's account was the correct one.
A nasty idea occurred to me. Why should not Ransom be a dupe? If something from outer space were
trying to invade our planet, what better smoke-screen could it put up than this very story of Ransom's?
Was there the slightest evidence, after all, for the existence of the supposed maleficent eldils on this
earth? How if my friend were the unwitting bridge, the Trojan Horse, whereby some possible invader
were effecting its landing on Tellus?, And then once more, just as when I had discovered that I had to
pack, the impulse to go no farther returned to me. "Go back, go back," it whispered to me, "send him a
wire, tell him you were ill, say you'll come some other time-anything." The strength of the feeling
astonished me. I stood still for a few moments telling myself not to be a fool, and when I finally resumed
my walk I was wondering whether this might be the beginning of a nervous breakdown. No sooner had
this idea occurred to me than it also became a new reason for not visiting Ransom. Obviously, I wasn't
fit for any such jumpy 'business' as his telegram almost certainly referred to. I wasn't even fit to spend an
ordinary weekend away from home. My only sensible course was to turn back at once and get safe
home, before I lost my memory or became hysterical, and to put myself in the hands of a doctor. It was
sheer madness to go on. '
I was now coming to the end of the heath and going down a ' small hill, with a copse on my left and
some apparently deserted industrial buildings on my right. At the bottom the evening ' mist was partly
thick. 'They call it a Breakdown at first. Wasn't there some mental disease in which quite ordinary
objects looked to the patient unbelievably ominous?..
looked, in fact, just as that abandoned factory looks to me now? Great bulbous shapes of cement,
strange brickwork bogeys, glowered at me over dry scrubby grass pock-marked with grey pools and
intersected with the remains of a light railway. I was reminded of things which Ransom had seen in that
other world: only there, they were people. Long spindle-like giants whom he calls Sorns. What made it
worse was that he regarded them as good people-very much nicer, in fact, than our own race. He was in
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