felt she was becoming an Aighor, surrounded by so much that was non-human. But making choices had
always bothered her. So much to lose. So often, they had lost. For a time she had believed something
powerful and invisible had been appointed to punish them, discourage them, because they had not been
daring enough. Now they were daring. Now they would fly right into the realm of the Perfidisians, and
they would possibly die — or worse — would discover that the Perfidisians, or some power like them,
had been the appointed discouragers all along. She tensed. A small back portion of her mind pursued the
idea, flinging out vision after vision of a Perfidisian hell, cages with sticks being poked incessantly,
escape opportunities turning into more chances for failure, orchestrated failure and disappointment. Her
arm muscles knotted. Until now, at least they had had peace. How foolish to risk peace for the chance of
cages and sticks, mud on their faces as they crawled away and were captured. How foolish even in the
face of influence, beating the odds, blue skies and fine places to live. She should have thought it out more
carefully, but it was too late now. The decision had been made.
Oomalo unstrapped himself and made his way carefully to relief facilities. There he defecated, washed,
and ordered a meal. He didn’t bother to ask if Alae needed anything. Warping was a brief visit to her own
private hell, and it was impolite to disturb someone so involved.
He felt mildly drunk. He leaned against the wall outside the relief center and ate a piece of bread, eyes
almost closed. He wondered what it would be like to have trillions of words of desired information to sell.
But his fancies were vaguely boring. He had never disliked life aboard the station. It was comfortable,
secure, and interesting. He could spend many more decades exploring the old ship, adding to his picture
of the civilization that had built it. Being rich probably wouldn’t give him problems any more interesting
than the ones he already had.
But he respected Alae’s decisions. She had decided to contract-purchase the old ship and offer it as a
listening station so close to the Perfidisian system. Her offer had been snatched up quickly by their
employers, and the ship had been paid off and signed over to the Waunters for a thirty-year contract, with
reversion after twenty-five years. The ship was technically theirs now. And it was due to her that his life
was as interesting as it was. He knew exactly what he offered her in return: a means to give her plans
solidity.
The period ended none too soon for Alae. The ship fell from strangeness, and the direct-view bubble
cleared. Stars and clouds of stars, perspectives almost unchanged, waited as always. She pressed her
temples and nodded as if to sort her tumbling memories back into place. Then the hell passed and she
stood to go with Oomalo to the Ear.
Silence still. They put the ship into a long, cautious orbit, down to the tiny pinprick that was the
Perfidisian planet.
From a thousand kilometers the surface was gray and blue, splotched with rust-red and bands of ochre. It
was covered with a cross-thatch of what may have been roads at one time. No natural landscape
remained, and no prominent artificial structures. Everything had been scoured away, leaving the surface
reasonably smooth, with no irregularities greater than four to five meters. Alae shot the sunlit crescent
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