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The young American soldiers (But the uniforms were wrong. I'm not old enough to remember the old
ones, but these are not made for American bodies.) escorted him down corridors, up stairs, through
doors, until they were outside and they put him into a heavily armored van. What did they think,
he was part of a conspiracy and his fellows would come to save him? Didn't they know that a man in
his position would have no friends by now?
Jerry had seen it at Yale. Dr. Swick had been very popular. Best damn professor in the
department. He could take the worst drivel and turn it into a play, take terrible actors and make
them look good, take apathetic audiences and make them, of all things, enthusiastic and hopeful.
And then one day the police had broken into his home and found Swick with four actors putting on a
play for a group of maybe a score of friends. What was it-- Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf? Jerry
remembered. A sad script. A despairing script. But a sharp one, nonetheless, one that showed
despair as being an ugly, destructive thing, one that showed lies as suicide, one that, in short,
made the audience feel that, by God, something was wrong with their lives, that the peace was
illusion, that the prosperity was a fraud, that America's ambitions had been cut off and that so
much that was good and proud was still undone--
And Jerry realized that he was weeping. The soldiers sitting across from him in the armored van
were looking away. Jerry dried his eyes.
As soon as news got out that Swick was arrested, he was suddenly unknown. Everyone who had
letters or memos or even class papers that bore his name destroyed them. His name disappeared from
address books. His classes were empty as no one showed up. No one even hoping for a substitute,
for the university suddenly had no record that there had ever been such a class, ever been such a
professor. His house had gone up for sale, his wife had moved, and no one said good-bye. And then,
more than a year later, the CBS news (which always showed official trials then) had shown ten
minutes of Swick weeping and saying, "Nothing has ever been better for America than Communism. It
was just a foolish, immature desire to prove myself by thumbing my nose at authority. It meant
nothing. I was wrong. The government's been kinder to me than I deserve." And so on. The words
were silly. But as Jerry had sat, watching, he had been utterly convinced. However meaningless the
words were, Swick's face was meaningful: he was utterly sincere.
The van stopped, and the doors in the back opened just as Jerry remembered that he had burned
his copy of Swick's manual on playwriting. Burned it, but not until he had copied down all the
major ideas. Whether Swick knew it or not, he had left something behind. But what will I leave
behind? Jerry wondered.
Two Russian children who now speak fluent English and whose father was blown up in their front
yard right in front of them, his blood spattering their faces, because Jerry had neglected to warn
him? What a legacy.
For a moment he was ashamed. A life is a life, no matter whose or how lived.
Then he remembered the night when Peter Andreyevitch (no-- Anderson. Pretending to be American
is fashionable nowadays, so long as everyone can tell at a glance that you're really Russian) had
drunkenly sent for Jerry and demanded, as Jerry's employer (i.e., owner), that Jerry recite his
poems to the guests at the party. Jerry had tried to laugh it off, but Peter was not that drunk:
he insisted, and Jerry went upstairs and got his poems and came down and read them to a group of
men who could not understand the poems, to a group of women who understood them and were merely
amused. Little Andre said afterward, "The poems were good, Jerry," but Jerry felt like a virgin
who had been raped and then given a two-dollar tip by the rapist.
In fact, Peter had given him a bonus. And Jerry had spent it.
Charlie Ridge, Jerry's defense attorney, met him just inside the doors of the courthouse.
"Jerry, old boy, looks like you're taking all this pretty well. Haven't even lost any weight."
"On a diet of pure starch, I've had to run around my cell all day just to stay thin." Laughter.
Ha ho, what a fun time we're having. What jovial people we are.
"Listen, Jerry, you've got to do this right, you know. They have audience response measurements.
They can judge how sincere you seem. You've got to really mean it."
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