My mother's travail was hard, and her ladies feared that they might not
save her. After I was born they half-wished that they bad failed to, for
asking to look upon the babe, she saw me full and gave a great cry, losing her
senses and near her wits. She wandered in some mind maze for several weeks
thereafter.
I was not as other children. My feet were not with toes, like unto human
kind; rather they were small hoofs, split, covered with horn such as make up
the nails upon fingers. In my face my eyebrows slanted above eyes that were
the color of butter amber, the like of which are not seen in a human
countenance. Thus, all gazing upon me knew that, though I seemed far stronger
of wind and limb than my unfortunate half-brothers and sisters before me, in
me the curse had taken another turning. I did not sicken and die, but thrived
and grew.
But my mother would not look upon me, saying I was a demon changeling,
implanted in her womb by some evil spell. When those about her brought me
nigh, she became so disordered in her wits that they feared her state would be
permanent. Soon she declared she had no true child but Hlymer - and later my
sister Lisana, born a year after me, a fair little maid with no flaw. In her
my mother took much pleasure.
As for me, I was not housed at Ulmsdale Keep, but sent out at nurse to
one of the foresters. However, though my mother had so disowned me, my father
was moved, not by any affection - for that I was never shown by those closest
to me in blood - but rather by his pride of family, to see that my upbringing
was equal to my birth. He gave me the name of Kerovan, which was that of a
noted warrior of our House, and he saw that I was tutored in arms as became a
youngling of station and shield, sending to me one Jago, a keepless man of
good birth who had served my Lord as Master of Menie until he was disabled by
a bad fall in the mountains.
Jago was a master of the arts of war, not only with the lesser skills
that can be battered into any youngling with a strong body and keen eyes, but
also those more subtle matters that deal with the ordering of bodies of men
great and small. Crippled and tied to a way of living that was only a half-
life for a once-active man, he set his brain to labor as he had once ordered
his body. Always he searched for new lore of battle, and sometimes at night I
would watch him with a strip of smoothed bark before him, patiently setting
out in his labored and crooked script facts concerning the breaking of sieges,
the ordering of assaults, and the like, droning on to me the while,
emphasizing this point or that by a fierce dig into the bark with the knife he
used for a pen.
Jago was far more widely traveled than most dalesmen, who perhaps in a
whole lifetime know little beyond four or five dales outside their own
birthplace. He had been overseas in his first youth, traveling with the Sulcar
Traders, those dangerous sea-rovers, to such half-fabled lands as Karsten,
Alizon, and Estcarp - though of the latter nation he said little, appearing
uneasy when I besought him to tell of his travels in detail. All he would say
was that it was a land where witch spells and ensorcellment were as common as
corn in a field, and that all the women were witches and held themselves
better and apart from men, so that it was a place where one kept one's eyes to
oneself and walked very quietly and mum-tongued.
There was this which makes me remember Jago well and with gratitude. In