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ignorance more dangerous, not less-but she didn't contradict him. She only smiled.
Silas couldn't decipher her smile. There was more than amusement in it, but he couldn't read the
remainder. He was glad of that small margin of mystery; in almost every other respect, he could
read her far better than she read him. To her, he must be a paradox wrapped in an enigma-and that
was the reason she was here.
Women of Cathy's age, still on the threshold of the society of the finished, were only a little
less numerous than men of his antiquity, but that did not make the two of them equal in their
exoticism. Silas knew well enough what to expect of Cathy-he had always had women of her kind
around him, even in the worst of the plague years-but men of his age were new in the world, and
they would continue to establish new precedents until the last of his generation finally passed
away. No one knew how long that might take; PicoCon's new rejuve technologies were almost entirely
cosmetic, but the next generation would surely reach more deeply into a man's essential being.
"Perhaps I did know the answer, once," he told her, not knowing or caring whether it might be
true. "Fortunately, a man's memory gets better and better with age, becoming utterly ruthless in
discarding the trivia while taking care to preserve only that which is truly precious." Pompous
old fool! he thought, even as the final phrase slid from his tongue-but he knew that Cathy
probably wouldn't mind, and wouldn't complain even if she did. To her, this encounter must seem
untrivial-perhaps even truly precious, but certainly an experience to be savored and remembered.
He was the oldest man she had ever known; it was entirely possible that she would never have
intimate knowledge of anyone born before him. It was different for Silas, even though such moments
as this still felt fresh and hopeful and intriguing. He had done it all a thousand times before,
and no matter how light and lively and curious the stream of his consciousness remained while the
affair was in progress, it would only be precious while it lasted.
Silas wondered whether Cathy would be disappointed if she knew how he felt. Perhaps she wanted
to find him utterly sober, weighed down by ennui-and thus, perhaps, even more worthy of her awe
and respect than he truly was.
He placed his hand on her shoulder and caressed the contour of her collarbone. Her skin, freshly
washed, felt inexpressibly luxurious, and the sensation which stirred him was as sharp- perhaps
even as innocent-as it would have been had he never felt its like before.
A practiced mind was, indeed, exceedingly adept at forgetting; it had wisdom enough not merely
to forget the trivial and the insignificant, but also that which was infinitely precious in
rediscovery.
"It must be strange," she said, insinuating her slender and naked arm around his waist, "to look
out on the sea and the sky with eyes that know them so well. There's so much in the world that's
unfamiliar to me I can't begin to imagine what it would be like to recognize everything, to be
completely at home." She was teasing him, requiring that he feed her awe and consolidate her
achievement in allowing herself to be seduced, "That's not what it's like," he said dutifully. "If
the world stayed the same, it might be more homely; but one of the follies of authentic youth is
the inability to grasp how quickly, and how much, everything changes-even the sea and the sky. The
line left behind by the tide changes with the flotsam; even the clouds sailing serenely across the
sky change with the climate and the composition of the air. The world I knew when I was young is
long gone, and depollution will never bring it back. I've lived through half a hundred worlds,
each one as alarming and as alien us the last. I don't doubt that a dozen more lie in ambush,
waiting to astonish me if I stay the course for a few further decades."
He felt a slight tremor pass through her and wondered whether it was occasioned by a sudden gust
of cool wind or by (he thrust of her eager imagination. She had known no other world than the one
into which recently acquired maturity had delivered her, but she must have had images in her mind
of the various phases of the Crisis. It was all caught in the Net, if only as an infinite jumble
of glimpses. Today's world was still haunted by the one which had gone madly to its destruction-
the one which Silas Arnett had helped to save.
She smiled at him again, as innocently as a newly hatched sphinx.
It's not my wisdom which makes me attractive to her, Silas thought. She sees me as something
primitive, perhaps feral. I was born of woman, and there was a full measure of effort and pain in
my delivery. I grew to the age she is now without the least ability to control my own pain, under
the ever present threat of injury, disease, and death. There's something of the animal about me
still.
He knew that he was melodramatizing for the sake of a little extra excitement, but it was true
nevertheless. When Silas had been in his teens there had been more than ten billion people in the
world, all naturally born, all naked to the slings and arrows of outrage and misfortune. Avid
forces of destruction had claimed all but a handful, and his own survival had to be reckoned a
virtual miracle. When Catherine Praill came to celebrate her hundred-and-twentieth birthday, by
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