After a while, he said, "Croaker was about the closest thing to a friend I had
when I was in the Company." He was still confused.
Croaker was the boss mere. He wasn't boss back when Raven was with them, but
they had been through a few captains since the old days. Raven was confused
because his old buddy and him had gotten in a fight after the Dominator got
put down.
Probably to show off for Darling, Raven had decided he was going to round
everything off and close the books by getting rid of the Lady, who lost her
powers during the battle. And Croaker said no you don't and didn't back down.
He put an arrow into Raven's hip just to show him he was serious.
"Is a friend somebody who just stands back and lets you do whatever you want
whenever you want to do it?" He gave me one of his puzzled looks. "Maybe he
was a whole lot more her friend than he was yours. Way I heard tell, they
spent a lot of time together. They rode off into the sunset together. And you
know the way those guys are about brotherhood, sticking together no matter
what, the Company being their family, them against the whole world. You told
me about it enough."
There was more I could have said. I could have given it to him by the numbers,
how they felt about brothers who ran out on them, but he wouldn't have got it.
There wasn't nobody with more guts in a fight than Raven. He wouldn't back
down from nobody or nothing. But in the emotional tight spots he was ready to
pack up and run in a minute. He did it to the Company and he did it to
Darling, but they could take care of themselves when he did.
I think maybe the worst stunt he ever pulled, and the one that still bugs him
the most, is when he ran out on his kids.
He did that back when he enrolled in the Black Company. Maybe he had his
reasons, and good ones at the time. He comes up with good excuses. But there's
no getting around the fact that he left his kids when they were too young to
take care of themselves. Without making any arrangements for them. He never
even told anybody he had kids till he told me, sort of, when he was still
being Corbie and started trying to find out what happened to them. They would
be grown up now. If they survived.
He didn't find out anything.
I figured he would make finding them his quest now. He didn't have anything
else going. And trudging through the forest headed south, he made noises like
that was what he was planning to do.
We got as far as Oar. He went out on a drunk. And stayed on it.
I went on one, too. I went through me some bad girls. All the things a guys
does when he's been out in the woods for a long time, then hits the city. Took
me four days to work through that and another day to shake the hangover. Then
I took a look at Raven and saw he was just getting started.
I went and found us a cheap place to stay. Then I got me a job protecting a
rich man's family. That wasn't hard to do. There were all kinds of rumors
about what happened in the Barrowland. The rich saw troubled times coming and
wanted to get themselves covered.