crying.
I was the one who made him stop, Beaver thinks. That was me. I was the one
who made him stop. I took him in my arms and sang to him.
Meanwhile George Pelsen is telling them about how the stage door finally
opened, but it wasn't Jackson Browne who came out, not David Lindlev, either;
it was the trio of chick singers, one named Randi, one named Susi, and one
named Chantay. Yummy ladies, oh so tall and tasty.
'Man,' Sean says, rolling his eyes. He's a chubby little fellow whose
sexual exploits consist of occasional field-trips to Boston, where he eyes the
strippers at the Foxy Lady and the waitresses at Hooters. 'Oh man, fuckin
Chantay.' He makes jacking-off gestures in the air. At that, at least, Beav
thinks, he looks like a pro.
'So I started talkin to them . . . to her, mostly, Chantay, and I ast her
if she'd like to see some of the Portland night-life. So we . . .'
The Beav takes a toothpick from his pocket and slides it into his mouth,
timing the rest out. All at once the toothpick is just what he wants. Not the
beer in front of him, not the joint in his pocket, certainly not George
Pelsen's empty kahoot about how he and the mythical Chantay got it on in the
back of his pickup, thank God for that camper cap, when George's Ram is
rockin, don't come knockin.
It's all puff and blow, Beaver thinks, and suddenly he is desperately
depressed, more depressed than he has been since Laurie Sue packed her stuff
and moved back to her mother's. This is utterly unlike him, and suddenly the
only thing he wants is to get the fuck out of here, fill his lungs with the
cool, salt-tanged seaside air, and find a phone. He wants to do that and then
to call Jonesy or Henry, it doesn't matter which, either one will do; he wants
to say Hey man, what's going on and have one of them say back Oh, you know,
Beav, SSDD. No bounce, no play.
He gets up.
'Hey, man,' George says. Beaver went to Westbrook junior College with
George, and then he seemed cool enough, but juco was many long beers ago.
'Where you goin?'
'Take a leak,' Beaver says, rolling his toothpick from one side of his
mouth to the other.
'Well, you want to hurry your bad ass back, I'm just getting to the good
part,' George says, and Beaver thinks crotchless panties. Oh boy, today that
old weird vibe is strong, maybe it's the barometer or something.
Lowering his voice, George says, 'When I got her skirt up—'
'I know, she was wearin crotchless panties,' Beaver says. He registers the
look of surprise — alnost shock — in George's eyes but pays no attention. 'I
sure want to hear that part.'
He walks away, walks toward the men's room with its yellow-pink smell of
piss and disinfectant, walks past it, walks past the women's, walks past the
door with OFFICE on it, and escapes into the alley. The sky overhead is white
and rainy, but the air is good. So good. He breathes it in deep and thinks
again. No bounce no play. He grins a little.
He walks for ten minutes, just chewing toothpicks and clearing his head.
At some point, he can't remember exactly when, he tosses away the joint that
has been in his pocket. And then he calls Henry from the pay phone in Joe's
Smoke Shop, up by Monument Square. He's expecting the answering machine —
Henry is still in school — but Henry is actually there, he picks up on the
second ring.
'How you doing, man?' Beaver asks.
'Oh, you know,' Henry says. 'Same shit, different day. How about you,
Beav?'
Beav closes his eyes. For a moment everything is all right again; as right
as it can be in such a piss-ache world, anyway.
'About the same, buddy,' he replies. 'Just about the same.'