Jesse began to smile. If he decided to show it to May Belle, he would have to explain the
joke, but once he did, she would laugh like a live audience on TV.
He would like to show his drawings to his dad, but he didn't dare. When he was in first
grade, he had told his dad that he wanted to be an artist when he grew up. He'd thought his
dad would be pleased. He wasn't. "What are they teaching in that damn school?" he had
asked. "Bunch of old ladies turning my only son into some kind of a..." He had stopped on the
word, but Jess had gotten the message. It was one you didn't forget, even after four years.
The devil of it was that none of his regular teachers ever liked his drawings. When they'd
catch him scribbling, they'd screech about wasted time, wasted paper, wasted ability. Except
Miss Edmunds, the music teacher. She was the only one he dared show anything to, and she'd
only been at school one year, and then only on Fridays.
Miss Edmunds was one of his secrets. He was in love with her. Not the kind of silly stuff
Ellie and Brenda giggled about on the telephone. This was too real and too deep to talk about,
even to think about very much. Her long swishy black hair and blue, blue eyes. She could
play the guitar like a regular recording star, and she had this soft floaty voice that made Jess
squish inside. Lord, she was gorgeous. And she liked him, too.
One day last winter he had given her one of his pictures. Just shoved it into her hand after
class and run. The next Friday she had asked him to stay a minute after class. She said he was
"unusually talented," and she hoped he wouldn't let anything discourage him, but would "keep
it up." That meant, Jess believed, that she thought he was the best. It was not the kind of best
that counted either at school or at home, but it was a genuine kind of best. He kept the
knowledge of it buried inside himself like a pirate treasure. He was rich, very rich, but no one
could know about it for now except his fellow outlaw, Julia Edmunds.
"Sounds like some kinda hippie," his mother had said when Brenda, who had been in
seventh grade last year, de- scribed Miss Edmunds to her.
She probably was. Jess wouldn't argue that, but he saw her as a beautiful wild creature
who had been caught for a moment in that dirty old cage of a schoolhouse, perhaps by
mistake. But he hoped, he prayed, she'd never get loose and fly away. He managed to endure
the whole boring week of school for that one half hour on Friday afternoons when they'd sit
on the worn-out rug on the floor of the teachers' room (there was no place else in the building
for Miss Edmunds to spread out all her stuff) and sing songs like "My Beautiful Balloon,"
"This Land Is Your Land," "Free to Be You and Me," "Blowing in the Wind" and because Mr.
Turner, the principal, insisted, "God Bless America."
Miss Edmunds would play her guitar and let the kids take turns on the autoharp, the
triangles, cymbals, tambourines, and bongo drum. Lord, could they ever make a racket! All
the teachers hated Fridays. And a lot of the kids pretended to.
But Jess knew what fakes they were. Sniffing "hippie" and "peacenik" even though the
Vietnam War was over and it was supposed to be OK again to like peace, the kids would
make fun of Miss Edmunds' lack of lipstick or the cut of her jeans. She was, of course, the
only female teacher anyone had ever seen in Lark Creek Elementary wearing pants. In
Washington and its fancy suburbs, even in Millsburg, that was OK, but Lark Creek was the