Egan, Greg - The Vat

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The Vat

A Romantic Comedy

Greg Egan

Harold's in love.

There's no hiding it. You can see it in his eyes, in the heat distribution on

his skin, in the twists and whorls of his brain's magnetic field.

Mary knows he exists, all right. When she looks his way, she doesn't look

through him - not quite. She notices him with a mild frown. She notices him like

a splinter in her thumb, or a crease in her lab coat. She notices him like a

faint odour; nothing utterly repulsive, but nothing too pleasant either.

Poor Harold was once a promising neurochemist. He discovered a brand new

neurotransmitter-antagonist which could make rats lethargic and depressed.

However, while proving that injections of this substance, during or immediately

after feeding, could produce an aversive association strong enough to make the

creatures starve themselves to death, he accidentally jabbed himself with the

needle, and soon found he was no longer able even to contemplate experiments

with rats. So these days, he works on The Vat.

Harold is in charge of spermatogenesis. In truth, he doesn't have a lot to do.

The computer monitors the temperature, the pH, the concentrations of nutrients,

growth factors, and waste products. Four hundred square metres of glass plate

are coated with a gelatinous matrix in which spermatogonia, the stem cells, are

embedded. When these cells divide, some of their daughter cells are more of the

same, the others are primary spermatocytes. Each primary spermatocyte gives rise

by meiosis to two secondary spermatocytes, each of which in turn divides into

two spermatids. Under the influence of Sertoli cells, also embedded in the

matrix, spermatids mature and shed cytoplasm to become spermatozoa.

Harold has seen all of these stages hundreds of times under the microscope, in

samples taken for quality control. He ought to find the whole business utterly

mundane. Sometimes, though - transfixed for a moment by the image on the screen

- he says in dreamy tones of sudden recognition (to no one in particular, often

to no one at all), "Yes! This is it. This is life." Staring at these specks of

unthinking biochemical machinery, he grows dizzy with wonder, then numb with

awe.

Then he gets on with the job.

Some nights, Harold wakes in the early hours and goes out to walk the empty

streets. Why? It's the hottest summer on record, and he can't get back to sleep.

Why? Unrequited love, of course. Why? Studies of the sequence of neurological

events which occur when a subject makes a self-motivated choice between hitting

a button and not hitting a button have revealed that the conscious

decision-making process starts milliseconds after other parts of the brain are

already committed to action. "Will" isn't the cause of anything, it's an

afterthought for the sake of peace of mind. Since reading this, Harold has

stopped making an effort to force his intentions to conform to his behaviour;

there doesn't seem much point now in maintaining the illusion. He just walks.

Even the stillest, quietest night comes alive for Harold. He sees gas molecules

spinning through the air, and photons pouring down from the stars, the way some

insane medieval monk might have imagined angels and demons battling it out

behind every corner and beneath every cobblestone. And the frenzy isn't confined

to his surroundings; the real bedlam is inside him. He pictures it all, vividly,

in garish, comic-book, computer-graphic colours: DNA being transcribed, proteins

being synthesised, carbohydrates being burnt in flameless enzymatic fires.

Everybody's made up of molecules, and plenty of people know it, but nobody feels

it like Harold.

Above all, he dizzily marvels at the fact that the molecules in his brain have

managed, collectively, to understand themselves: his neurotransmitters are part

of a system that knows what a neurotransmitter is. He can sketch the structures

of the central nervous system's one hundred most important substances; he's

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synthesised half of them with his own hands. He's even viewed real-time images

of his brain metabolising radioactively-labelled glucose, revealing which

regions were most active as he watched himself thinking about watching himself

think.

Harold doesn't know quite what to make of this molecular self-knowledge. He

can't decide if consciousness is miraculous or meaningless; he hovers between

mystical ecstasy and the purest nihilism. Sometimes he feels like a robot,

raised by human parents, who's just discovered the awful truth: poring over his

own circuit diagrams, horrified but enthralled; scanning a print-out of his own

software, following the flow of control from subroutine to subroutine;

understanding, at last, the ultimate shallowness of the deepest reasons for

everything he's ever done, everything he's ever felt - and dissociating into a

mist of a quadrillion purposeless, microscopic causes and effects.

This mood always passes, though, eventually.

Mary is responsible for oogenesis. Primary oocytes undergo meiotic division to

yield four cells, but only one of the four is a mature ovum; the others are tiny

cells known as polar bodies, and the second division is only completed if

fertilisation takes place. In a massive cultured substitute for the ovarian

cortex, millions of ova mature and burst from their follicles daily - no

parsimonious one a month here. The Vat has no time, and no need, to ponderously

mimic the stages of the human menstrual cycle; as in any good assembly line,

everything is happening at once.

Harold knows exactly where Mary lives, although of course he's never been

inside, and when he walks by at two in the morning, the narrow terrace house is

always black and silent. He hurries past, terrified that she might be awake, and

might glance out at the sound of his guilty footsteps.

He knows he ought to forget her. Sometimes he swears that he will. He sees

women on the street every day whom he finds a thousand times more attractive.

Total strangers treat him with far greater kindness and respect. He knows his

mere presence annoys her - and her presence evokes in him more shame and

confusion than tenderness, or even lust.

His love is ridiculous. His love is a farce. Yet the persistence of his

obsession doesn't surprise him at all. Evolution, he reasons, has not had time

to trim human consciousness down to the most productive, most essential

elements. His brain is capable of many arbitrary, even self-defeating, modes;

perhaps that is the price to pay for its flexibility, perhaps there is no easy

sequence of mutations which could remove such disadvantages without sacrificing

much more.

As for his own wish to be rid of this miserable, pointless love, Harold knows

that this has no more power to change his feelings than it does to change the

weather on Jupiter or the electron's charge-to-mass ratio; it's merely another

aspect of the state of his brain. Whatever admirable progress evolution has made

towards lining up intentions with behaviour to pander to the vanities of the

conscious mind, has - in Harold's case, at least - been wasted. The neurological

facts refuse to stay decently theoretical; the irony is that this shattering of

the illusion of will, although entirely reasonable, is not by any means

necessary; after all, the human brain is under no deep biochemical edict to be

reasonable. The epiphenomenon of logical thought simply happens to have been

more resilient, in this case, than the epiphenomenon of will; in a million other

people, as familiar with the facts as Harold, the battle happens to have gone

the other way.

Harold wonders, with a mixture of unease and fascination, if his reason is

strong enough to move on from this conquest to the ultimate triumph of

undermining itself.

When Mary's ova meet Harold's sperm, a high proportion are fertilised. Most of

the sperm go to waste, but not nearly as many as are lost in vivo. The rates of

polyspermy, and fertilisation by defective sperm, are consequently higher, but

such abnormalities don't really matter, in The Vat.

The resulting zygotes drift, slowly, along a vast conduit. They undergo

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