This was no consolation to the cat. I looked down at my Musky-gun, and found myself thinking of the day I got it,
just three months past. The first Musky-gun I had ever owned myself, mine for as long as it took me to kill Carlson.
After my father had presented it to me publicly, and formally charged me with the avenging of the human race, the
friends and neighbors—and dark-eyed Alia—had scurried safely inside for the ceremonial banquet. But my father
took me aside. We walked in silence past fields of growing corn to Mama’s grave, and in the distance the setting sun
over the Mountain looked like a knothole in the wall of Hell. Dad turned to me at last, pride and paternal concern
fighting for control of his ebony features, and said, “Isham . . . Isham, I wasn’t much older than you when I got my
first gun. That was long ago and far away, in a place callea Montgomery—things were different then. But some
things never change.” He tugged an earlobe reflectively, and continued, “Phil Collaci has taught you well, but
sometimes he’d rather shoot first and ask directions later. Isham, you just can’t go blazing away indiscriminately.
Not ever. You hear me?”
The crackling of the fire around the ruined Buick brought me back to the present. Damn, you called it again, Dad,
I thought as I shivered there on the sidewalk. You can’t go blazing away indiscriminately.
Not even here in New York City.
It was getting late, and my left arm ached abominably where Grey Brother had marked me—I reminded myself
sharply that I was here on business. I had no wish to pass a night in any city, let alone this one, so I continued on up
the street, examining every building I passed with extreme care. If Carlson had ears, he now knew someone was in
New York, and he might figure out why. I was on his home territory—every alleyway and manhole was a potential
ambush.
There were stores and shops of every conceivable kind, commerce more fragmented and specialized than I had
ever seen before. Some shops dealt only in a single item. Some I could make no sense of at all. What the hell is an
“rko”?
I kept to the sidewalk where I could. I told myself I was being foolish, that I was no less conspicuous to Carlson
or a Musky than if I’d stood on second base at the legendary Shea Stadium, and that the street held no surprise
tomcats. But I kept to the sidewalk where I could. I remember Mama—a long time ago—telling me not to go in the
street or the monsters would get me.
They got her.
Twice I was forced off the curb, once by a subway entrance and once by a supermarket. Dad had seen to it that I
had the best plugs Fresh Start had to offer, but they weren’t that good. Both times I hurried back to the sidewalk and
was thoroughly disgusted with my pulse rate. But I never looked over my shoulder. Collaci says there’s no sense
being scared when it can’t help you—and the fiasco with the cat proved him right.
It was early afternoon, and the same sunshine that was warming the forests and dorms and work-zones of Fresh
Start, my home, seemed to chill the air here, accentuating the barren emptiness of the ruined city. Silence and
desolation were all around me as I walked, bleached bones and crumbling brick. Carlson had been efficient, all right;
nearly as efficient as the atomic bomb folks used to be so scared of once. It seemed as though I were in some
immense devil’s autoclave, that ignored filth and grime but grimly scrubbed out life of any kind.
Wishful thinking, I decided, and shook my head to banish the fantasy. If the city had been truly lifeless, I’d be
approaching Carlson from uptown—I would never have had to detour as far south as the Lincoln Tunnel, and my left
arm would not have ached so terribly. Grey Brother is extremely touchy about his territorial rights.
I decided to replace the makeshift dressing over the torn biceps. I didn’t like the drumming insistence of the pain:
it kept me awake but interfered with my concentration. I ducked into the nearest store that looked defensible, and
found myself sprawled on the floor behind an overturned table, wishing mightily that it weren’t so flimsy.
Something had moved.
Then I rose sheepishly to my feet, holstering my heater and rapping my subconscious sentries sharply across the
knuckles for the second time in half an hour. My own face looked back at me from the grimy mirror that ran along
one whole wall, curly black hair in tangles, wide lips stretched back in what looked just like a grin. It wasn’t a grin. I
hadn’t realized how bad I looked.
Dad had told me a lot about Civilization, before the Exodus, but I don’t suppose I’ll ever understand it. A glance
around this room raised more questions than it answered. On my left, opposite the long mirror, were a series of
smaller mirrors that paralleled it for three-quarters of its length, with odd-looking chairs before them. Something like
armchairs made of metal, padded where necessary, with levers to raise and lower them. On my right, below the
longer mirror, were a lot of smaller, much plainer wooden chairs, in a tight row broken occasionally by strange