
to endure. "Ted, Ted, Ted," he whispered, unable to make himself heard.
Mechanically, without thinking, his knees swiveled toward the door, but his muscles
seemed frozen stiff-turned to ice by some dreadful magic-and he could not move an
inch forward. "Ted, Ted," he whispered again. They had come. The others. Today of
all days. They had come and got Ted.
He wanted to call out and tell Ted that he was coming. Bit by bit, he erected a
tenuous shield around his mind, attempting to hold back as much of the agony as
possible. At least he could think now. He managed to stop weeping but the desire to
flee-to get out of this room and away from the pain and leave Ted to die-remained so
powerful he had to waste precious energy trying to subdue it. At last, he began to
crawl forward, moving on his hands and knees. He was glad the office was
soundproof; at least he didn't have to worry about people, attracted by the sound of
his own cries and Ted's, interrupting and finding him this way. But that had been a
blessing for the others too, he realized. When they had come to do their dirty work, no
one had interrupted them either; no one heard a sound.
But Ted heard. He was calling out now, his voice faint, more like an animal than
a man, barely an indecipherable whisper. Crawling, Alec tried to reply:
"Ted...hold on...it's me-it's Alec...I'm coming...try to-"
A whimper rose in answer: "Alec, oh, Alec... please ...please..."
"I'm coming," Alec called. He tried to crawl faster. The office consisted of three
identically sized rooms, each opening into the next. The farther he progressed, the
more difficult it became to withstand the agony. When he entered the second room, he
forced his fingers under his jacket and removed the revolver he kept holstered there.
Pausing briefly, he flicked off the safety, then checked to ensure a bullet was resting
in the proper chamber. Then he went forward, holding the gun ahead of him. Ted's
agony continued to burn inside his mind. Outside, in the open world beyond, it was a
simple process to prevent stray, unwanted thoughts and feelings from intruding into
his own mind. But Ted was not simply thinking and feeling; he was dying. And there
was no way Alec could prevent those awful thoughts from penetrating way down to
the very core of his own being.
He made it. Finally. The door leading into the third room. The light was not
burning. He was grateful to them for that. The last thing he needed now was to have
to look at Ted Mencken as well as kill him. Feeling him was horrible enough-seeing
might well force Alec past the precarious edge of madness. He crawled into the dark
room. Stopping, he tried to concentrate upon the source of the agony, attempting to
discern its exact direction. His hand moved carefully, raising and lowering the
revolver, gauging and estimating the shot. He didn't try to say a word. He thought Ted
was silent too. Both knew this must be the end.
Alec fired. The gun exploded with a tremendous heaving sigh. Ted screamed.
Alec dropped the gun, then fell forward, hurling his cheek against the cold bare floor.
His body shook and trembled. His hands opened and closed spasmodically.
But it was over.