
I once lived a while on the darkside of a world which circled close to a blue giant sun. The ships
had to creep in and out of ports hidden in deep caves, fully shielded against the fearsome torrent of
radiation. There was no habitable place in the system save for the deep, labyrinthine ways of the inner
world. The people lived in cities built in the planet's honeycomb heart, away from the lethal light and the
cold of darkness, The air was always hot and loaded with odours - a background stench of faint decay
and sweat, and heavy perfume intended to drown and dis-guise it, since it could not be concealed. The
most valued thing on the planet was light - soft light, kind light, warming light, soothing light, painless light.
All worlds want most what they cannot find around them. With a brightside that was an inferno, and a
darkside that could see no stars, this planet bred people who knew the true beauty and presence of light,
who could savour its texture and understand the inner qualities of its make-up. Lapthorn and I used to
take our ship - it was the oldFire-Eater then - back and forth in search of all manner of lighting devices -
exotic lamps and equally exotic substances to fuel them.
After three years of trading with the world and living there fifty days in every hundred, Lapthorn
swore that he could tell the colour of light with the follicles of his skin, and taste its texture with his tongue.
He was beginning to babble about the search for the perfect light when I thought it was time to move on
to fresh pastures. Lapthorn was like that - impressionable, sensitive. Every world left something in his
character. I'm different. I'm a realist.
Another time we worked, for a while, for the great library at New Alexandria. Lapthorn didn't
like that, because it was in the inner wheel - the great highway of star civilisation. Earth was too far out
from the rich worlds to remain the hub of human existence. New Alexandria, New Rome, New Israel,
and Penaflor were our homes in the stars. They were our new heritage, the focus of our future. Lapthorn
hated them, and craved the distant shores. He loved the feel of alien soil, the heat of alien suns, the love
of alien women. But there was better money, come by far more easily, in the core, and we needed to
scrap theFire-Eater before she fire-ate herself and us with her. Hence the New Alexandria job.
We spent the best part of two years tracking down alien knowledge and literature commissioned
by the library. The books we found were in a thousand languages, many of which were completely
unknown save to the people who wrote them down. But the problems of translation weren't any of our
concern. We just located the books, procured them by fair means or foul, and carted them to the library.
I liked that job, and even Lapthorn admitted that it was good in parts - the parts we spent on alien
worlds. Oddly enough, I think that was the most dangerous job I ever did. I found that aliens (pretty
much like humans, I suppose) are perfectly logical where major matters like money are concerned, but
absurdly touchy about certain objects no good to man or beast.
The sky is as black as the mountains now. The desert plan is invisible. I light the fire. The light
hasn't much warmth. Lapthorn would have complained of its dull colour and its foul taste. But it's all I
have. The ship retains a reservoir of power, but all of it is directed to one single purpose - maintaining the
faint, surely futile, mayday bleep which is my solitary hope of eventual rescue. The bleep has a limited
range, and no ship is likely to pass within it, because I am within the fringes of a dark nebula, where no
sane captain would bring his ship. But the bleep is my one link with the universe beyond the mountain,
and it surely deserves every last vestige of theJavelin's power.
Agitated by the wind, clouds of sand rustle against the lower slopes. The fire crackles. The wind
seems to be deliberately shift-ing so that wherever I sit it can blow smoke into my eyes. It's a malicious
wind this one. Lapthorn's cross will be down again in the morning. Moths, attracted by the fire, flit back
and forth above the flames, casting shadow-flickers in the light reflected from the smoke column.
The sparks that fly away from the fire remind me of stars. I wish that I were a moth, to fly away
from this little world, among the stars again. The wind knows about this idle dream, and uses it to taunt