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would have friends, muscle. Escorts? Fighters hanging off station to watch for trouble? He took
that into account, but it didn't stop him. Sealing his hatches, he called up Station Center, filed
a purely fictitious destination report, and received formal permission to undock. Then, because
his instincts were still on fire, he meticulously followed the departure trajectory he was
assigned. Cursing like a slavey all the way, he left Com-Mine along a route that would attract as
little attention as possible. And he didn't risk cutting in boost and shifting his course toward
the belt until he was absolutely alone at least fifty thousand kilometers past the known range of
any scan from the vicinity of Station.
He was hoping that the belt was far enough away to hide him. The Station had been built at
a considerable distance to avoid the meteor storms and other debris which always accompanied
asteroid belts through space, the residue of planets that time and gravity had reduced to rubble.
By the time he changed course, the exertion of manning the whole ship himself had begun to
make his hands shake and his eyes fill with sweat. He had too many instruments to read, too many
systems to monitor, too much data to absorb. And his computer couldn't help him. It had
extravagant fail-safes: the very mechanisms which enabled him to run Bright Beauty alone would
shut the ship down in alarm if he gave the computer control of them. Nevertheless he kept going.
His instincts had warned him, and he always obeyed them.
Angus Thermopyle was a pirate and a mine jumper. He hated everybody, and there was enough
old blood on his hands to convict a whole prison full of illegals. He was alone now because the
decrepit drunk he'd hired to crew for him had made the mistake of asking the wrong question at the
wrong time; so he'd flattened the man's head with a spanner and left the body in one of the
thruster tubes to be ashed the next time the drive was engaged. He may not have been rich, but he
was probably everything else the people in Mallorys believed him to be.
He was also a coward.
So he ran from the Hyland ship under as much g as his body could stand and remain
conscious. The muscles of his shoulders began to twitch, and he couldn't keep the sweat out of his
eyes; but he kept running. When he knew that he had pushed himself too far, he didn't stop:
instead, he started pumping drugs into his veins, stim to keep him awake, cat to keep him steady.
He was afraid, and he ran.
Before he was close enough to the belt to begin deceleration, he had been driving under
heavy g for half a standard day. Now the drugs were giving him psychotic episodes with increasing
regularity, and he no longer knew clearly what he was doing. However, he was familiar with those
drugs; before starting them, he'd understood what they would do to him. So he'd taken the
precaution of locking Bright Beauty's course. When he was finally forced to surrender control of
his ship's systems to her command computer, the course-lock and her fail-safes managed the hard
braking for him. As a result, he arrived without crashing - and without pulling his ship away into
madness - at a part of the belt which everyone knew had been mined out years ago; a long stretch
of sailing rock where other ships were unlikely to come.
There he picked a particularly dead asteroid, parked Bright Beauty in a mining crater,
shut down everything except life-support, and went to sleep in his g-seat, catted out of his mind.
If the Hyland ship could find him there, then he was lost anyway. He had never really had
a chance to escape.
He still had no reason to believe the people on that ship even knew he existed.
Hours later, he awoke screaming because there were skinworms all over him, crawling,
gnawing, starting to burrow in -...
The sensation was terrible. It was also normal; a predictable consequence of the drugs.
However, for him so much of what was terrible was also familiar that he knew exactly what to do.
Although he couldn't swallow the bright terror rising in his throat or unknot the red pain closing
around his heart, his hands were almost steady as he injected more drugs into his veins -
analgesics to flush the now-poisonous stimulants and cataleptics away, antihistamines and steroids
to soften his body's reactions. As soon as these new drugs took hold, he slept again.
The next time he awakened, he had trouble breathing because the air in Bright Beauty was
going bad. He'd left Com-Mine Station without supplies. That meant he now had only a little water,
less food - and no clean pads for the scrubbers which were supposed to keep his air breathable.
Checking the computer's maintenance log, he confirmed that his present pads were long overdue for
a change.
This development made him rage as if he were on the verge of a breakdown. But that, too,
was normal. He still knew exactly what to do. Risking anoxia because he didn't have the strength
to put on an EVA suit, he shut down circulation and took the pads out of the scrubbers. While his
head throbbed with C02 overload and his vision blurred in and out of focus, he used half his water
to make a chemical bath for the pads. He left the pads in the bath as long as he could - until he
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