
her face, making her skin itch. Yozerf had always loved her hair, despite the fact that it was too fine to be
put into anything resembling a fashionable style. It was soft, he had insisted, as if that were the only
quality that could possibly matter. So one day after he died—she wasn't sure exactly which day—she
had cut it all off with a knife and flung it into the fire. When her companions asked her why she had done
it, she said that it was so she could pass as a boy, something safer to be in these times than a woman.
With her figure and men's clothing, such a deception wouldn't be hard. Whether they had believed the
explanation or not, she did not know.
"Are you all right, daughter?” Londah asked in a low voice, touching Suchen's shoulder.
"Yes,” Suchen lied, because it took less effort than telling the truth. How could she possibly be all right
ever again? Somehow, she managed to force herself to appear interested, to raise her head and turn to
Auglar, as if he could say anything that would make any difference to her. “What's the news?"
Auglar looked as though he had aged a decade since their flight from Segg. The stubble of a beard
darkened his pale skin, his long, black hair was lank from dirt, and shadows ringed his blue eyes. No
onlooker would ever have guessed, not only that he had been one of the most powerful men in Jenel, but
that he had almost been their king.
"News, rumor, wild speculation,” he said tiredly. “I've talked to a dozen different groups, and none of
them have given me the same story twice. Fellrant is going to surrender Jenel to Argannon. Fellrant is
fielding an army. A village was destroyed when Jenelese soldiers stole all their food. Or maybe it was
Argannese soldiers.” He shook his head. “The gods alone know what the truth is."
"The truth is that people are desperate,” Londah said, taking a judicious sip of her ale. For an instant,
Suchen caught a glimpse of her cold, gray eyes beneath the hood. “And that things are going to get far
worse as the war continues. Segg was only the first city to fall. Soon Jenel will be full of homeless, hungry
people who will do anything to survive."
"Then we have no choice but to get back to Kellsjard as quickly as possible,” Buudi said grimly. His
once-black hair had gone almost entirely gray, and lines scored deep creases around his eyes and mouth.
Brenwulf nodded. He was the brother of Sifya, Auglar's wife. Like her, he was Wolfkin, although none of
them had known it until those terrible last days in Segg. “We'll be safe there."
Kellsjard. Homesickness stabbed through Suchen, making all the miles they still had to travel seem like
an impassable barrier. But at the same time, she wondered if the feeling were not simply an illusion.
Kellsjard was where she and Yozerf had become lovers, where they had been happy, if only for a little
while. Did she somehow think that returning to Kellsjard would undo everything that had happened since
they had left?
"Safe? For a while. Until Fellrant comes looking for you,” Londah said mildly, as if she commented on
nothing more serious than the weather. “That is the first place he will search. Will you endanger all those
within by going home?"
Auglar hesitated, but then shook his head. “I don't see any other choice. If I believed that my absence
would save anyone ... then I would stay away. But do you truly think that Fellrant will simply leave my
wife and my heir alone, just because I am gone?"
"Perhaps. But I fail to see how your presence will make them any more safe."
Auglar's expression tightened, but he did not dispute her words. “I can't abandon them."