
two stacks of books demonstrated so many shared interests—world history, geology, abnormal
psychology, and psychic phenomena were some of them—that we paused outside to remark on it. This
led to a conversation, in which I got some first intimations of his astonishing mentality, and eventually to
my driving him home to save him a circuitous bus-trip, or, more likely, as I learned later, a weary
hitch-hike.
Our conversation continued excitingly throughout most of the long drive, though even in that first
exploratory confabulation Daloway made so many guarded references to a malefic power menacing us all
and perhaps him in particular, that I wondered if he mightn't have a bee in this bonnet about World
Communism or the Syndicate or the John Birch Society. But despite this possible paranoid obsession, he
was clearly a most worthy partner for intellectual disputation and discourse.
Toward the end of the drive Daloway suddenly got nervous and didn't want me to take him the last few
blocks. However, I overcame his reluctance. I remarked on the oil well next to his trailer—not to have
done so would have implied I thought he was embarrassed by it—and he retorted sardonically, “My
mechanical watchdog! Innocent-looking ugly beast, isn't it? But you've got to keep in mind that much
more of it or of its domain is below the surface, like an iceberg. Which reminds me that I once ran across
a seemingly well-authenticated report of a black iceberg—"
Thereafter I visited Daloway regularly in his trailer, often late at night, and we made our library trips
together and even occasional brief expeditions to sleazily stimulating spots like La Gondola Negra. At
first I thought he had merely been ashamed of his battered aluminum-walled home, though it was neat
enough inside, almost austere, but then I discovered that he hated to reveal to anyone where he lived, in
part because he hesitated to expose anyone else to the great if shadowy danger he believed overhung
him.
Daloway was a spare man yet muscular, with the watchful analytic gaze of an intellectual, but the hands of
a mechanic. Like too many men of our times, he was amazingly learned and knowledgeable, yet unable
to apply his abilities to his own advancement—for lack of connections and college degrees and because
of nervous instabilities and emotional blockages. He had more facts at his fingertips than a Ph. D.
candidate, but he used them to buttress off-trail theories and he dressed with the austere cleanly neatness
and simplicity of a factory hand or a man newly released from prison.
He'd work for a while in a machine shop or garage and then live very thriftily on his savings while he fed
his mind and pondered all the problems of the universe, or sometimes—this was before our meeting and
the period of his dreads—organized maverick mental-therapy or para-psychology groups.
This unworldly and monetarily unprofitable pattern of existence at least made Daloway an exciting
thinker. For him the world was a great conundrum or a series of puzzle boxes and he a disinterested yet
childishly sensitive and enthusiastic observer trying to unriddle them. A scientist, or natural philosopher,
rather, without the blinkered conformity of thought which sometimes characterizes men with professional
or academic standing to lose, but rather with a fiercely romantic yet clear-headed and at times even
cynical drive toward knowledge. Atoms, molecules, the stars, the unconscious mind, bizarre drugs and
their effects, (he'd tried out LSD and mescaline), the play of consciousness, the insidious interweaving of
reality and dream (as climatically in his dreams of the Black Gondola), the bafflingly twisted and folded
strata of Earth's crust and man's cerebrum and all history, the subtle mysterious swings of world events
and literature and sub-literature and politics—he was interested in all of them, and forever searching for
some unifying purposeful power behind them, and sensitive to them to a preternatural degree.
Well, in the end he did discover the power, or at least convinced himself he did, and convinced me too
for a time—and still does convince me, on lonely nights—but he got little enough satisfaction from his
knowledge, that I know of, and it proved to be as deadly a discovery, to the discoverer, as finding out