
to give a crew its illusion of privacy unless there was a definite emergency.
Trevor Martin was somewhere out of sight, possibly behind the dune-form.
Radkowski worried about the kid; sometimes he acted as if he were younger than
his twenty-one years. Still, the enthusiasm and sheer joy of living that the
kid exuded—when he was caught unguarded and forgot to be sullen and
uncommunicative—was almost contagious, a drug that lifted the spirits of the
whole crew. Radkowski had opposed the whole idea of bringing a crew member as
young as Trevor along, but he seemed to be working out, and his presence
definitely gave the crew a lift in morale. Although they pretended not to, and
possibly didn't even realize it themselves, everybody liked the kid and wanted
the best for him. As long as he didn't manage to kill himself by being
impatient, impetuous, ignorant, aggravating, and generally clumsy—in short,
acting like an adolescent instead of an adult—he'd be fine.
John Radkowski could hardly blame the kid for acting like a kid. When he was
young, he had been a lot worse. It was only by a miracle of God that he had
straightened out. Certainly none of his acquaintances, not even his own
mother, would ever have guessed he would one day be the commander of the third
expedition to Mars.
There are good neighborhoods in Queens, but the one John Radkowski grew up
in was not one of them. The Harry S. Truman public-assistance housing unit was
an incubator for raising junior criminals, not young scientists. By the time
he had reached age six, Johnny had already learned that you never show
weakness, and you stay alive by being just as mean as the other guy.
One time, when he was fourteen, he had been hanging around the apartment
with his gang. It wasn't a real gang with colors, just the bunch of kids he
hung around the neighborhood with. They kind of watched out for each other.
Stinky and Fishface had been there, he remembered. His mother was gone,
probably at work at one of a series of interchangeable jobs she held at
fast-food restaurants. They were bored. They were usually bored.
John and his older brother, Karl, shared a small bedroom. Karl was gone,
probably hanging out with his gang—he was a member of the Skins, a real gang,
the local white-boys' gang. Karl was way cool, but he never wanted Johnny to
meet his gang buddies; said he wanted Johnny to have something better out of
life.
Stinky was smoking a cigarette he'd found in Johnny's mother's cupboard, and
Fishface was sitting on Karl's bunk bed. Karl would have gone ballistic if
he'd seen one of Johnny's friends on his bed, but Karl wasn't there, so fuck
him. Fishface was picking at the wall, the cheap plasterboard coming loose
from the studs. One end was already free, and Fishface, bored, wiggled and
pried at it until he worked it loose enough to pull out and look at the ragged
insulation underneath.
"Shit, boy," Stinky said, "what the fuck you got there?"
Fishface didn't bother to look up. "Nothing."
"Nothing? Shit." Stinky dropped the cigarette on the floor, walked over, and
reached down inside the hole. "You dogfucker, you call this nothing?"
Stinky held up what he had found: a nine-millimeter automatic, gleaming dull
gray and malignant in the feeble sunlight filtering through the dirty window.
Johnny hadn't realized that his brother had it. "Hey, Stinky, I think you'd
better put that back," he said, nervous.
"What, are you a pussy? Afraid your badass brother gonna see?" Stinky held
out the pistol, pointed it at Johnny's head, and squeezed the trigger.
"Bang," he said.
Johnny had flinched when he saw Stinky's finger whiten on the trigger. The
trigger hadn't moved. "You faggot," he said.
Stinky laughed and popped the safety. "Thought you bought it there, didn't
you?" He turned the gun over, ejected the magazine, and looked at it. "Full
load, too. Man, your brother is packing." His voice held a tone of envy.
"Look, this isn't funny," Johnny said. "You'd better—"
Stinky held the magazine in one hand and the automatic in the other. He