
highest number Dysan could reliably identify.
Seized by sudden rage, Dysan hurled himself against the piled stones. Pain arched through his shoulder,
and his head snapped sideways. He slid to the ground rubbing his bruised, abraded skin, feeling like a
fool. The mason and his foul-mouthed apprentice had not mortared yet, which meant the wall would
come down, even if Dysan had to do it block by heavy block.
Dysan set straight to work. It had not taken the men long, but Dysan harbored no illusions that he could
work as quickly. Strength had never been his asset. The Hand had made him understand that his frailty,
the strange workings and malfunctions of his mind, his notched front teeth and bow-shaped shins were all
a god-inflicted curse visited upon his mother for her sins. If the Hand had intended to drive him toward
worship, their words had had the opposite ef-tect. Dysan would never throw his support to any deity
who punished infants for their parents' wrongdoing. More likely, the priests had intended the insults as a
substitute for the "sheep-shite stupid" label they gave to most of the other orphans. They could hardly call
Dysan brainless and still expect him to learn the language lessons they bombarded him with for much of
the day.
Sometimes, in his dreams, Dysan taunted his teachers, driving them to a raw rage they dared not sate
with coiled fists, whips, and Wades for fear of losing their delicately constitutioned secret weapon. In his
dreams, he could triumph where, in real life, he had miserably failed. Then, Dysan had done whatever
they asked because he had seen the price others paid for disobedience. He had been desperately, utterly
afraid, terrified to the core of his being, dependent on the praise and approval that he received from a
brother who, though only three years older, was the only parent figure Dysan had ever known. Certain
her undersized, sallow baby with his protuberant belly and persistent river of snot would die, his mother
had not even bothered to name him. He had turned two, by the grace of Kharmael, before she dared to
invest any attachment in him. By then, the disease had damaged her physically and mentally, and she
relied nearly as much on her older son as Dysan did.
Dysan examined the stonework from every angle, ideas churning through his mind. Though willing to
spend the night dismantling the structure, he sought an easier and faster way. Well-placed and wedged,
the gray stone seemed to mock him, a solid testament to another stolen love. He had one possession in
this life that he saw as permanent, and no one was going to take it from him without a fight. He examined
the base, knowing that it ultimately supported the entire pile. If he could remove a significant piece from
the bottom, the whole day's labor might collapse. He had only to find one stone, one low-placed weak
point.
Anger receded as Dysan focused on the wall, here studying, there wiggling, until he found an essential
rock that shifted slightly when he pressed against it. Dysan flexed his fingers, planted them firmly against
the rock, and shoved with all his strength. A sheeting sound grated through his hearing, but he felt much
less movement than the noise suggested. Not for the first time, he cursed his lack of size. He had stopped
growing, in any direction, since he had eaten, albeit lightly, of the poisoned feast and had met more than
one seven-year-old who topped him in height and breadth.
Damn it! Dysan pounded a fist against the wall, which only succeeded in slamming pain through the side
of his hand. He had long ago learned that legs were stronger than arms, so he lay on his back and braced
his bare feet against the rock he had selected. Dampness permeated the frayed linen of his shirt, chilling
his back to the spine. Closing his eyes, he attempted to focus his mind in one direction, though the effort
proved taxing. His thoughts preferred to stray, especially when it came to anything involving counting, and
it took a great effort of will to keep his mind engaged on any one task. The Hand had taught him to use
anger as an anchor, and he turned to that technique now. Dysan closed his eyes and directed his
thoughts. They want to take away my home. His muscles coiled. They battered and broke my friends