
felt too heavy to hold open. Not now, I thought, shoving my hand into my
pocket for my prescription bottle. Jesus, not now. For six months, every
member of Trinity's inner circle had suffered frightening neurological
symptoms. No one's symptoms were the same. My affliction was narcolepsy.
Narcolepsy and dreams. At home, I usually gave in to the trancelike sleep. But
when I needed to fight off a spell—at Trinity, or driving my car—only
amphetamines could stop the overwhelming waves.
I pulled out my prescription bottle and shook it. Empty. I'd swallowed my last
pill yesterday. I got my speed from Ravi Nara, Trinity's neurologist, but Nara
and I were no longer speaking. I tried to rise, thinking I'd call a pharmacy
and prescribe my own, but that was ridiculous. I couldn't even stand. A leaden
heaviness had settled into my limbs. My face felt hot, and my eyelids began to
fall.
The prowler was at the window again. In my mind, I raised my gun and aimed it,
but then I saw the weapon lying in my lap. Not even survival instinct could
clear the fog filling my brain. I looked back at the window. The face was
gone. A woman's face. I was sure of it. Would they use a woman to kill me? Of
course. They were pragmatists. They used what worked.
Something scratched at my doorknob. Through the thickening haze I fought to
aim my gun at the door. Something slammed against the wood. I got my finger on
the trigger, but as my swimming brain transmitted the instruction to depress
it, sleep annihilated consciousness like fingers snuffing a candle flame.
Andrew Fielding sat alone at his desk, furiously smoking a cigarette. His
hands were shaking from a confrontation with Godin. It had happened the
previous day, but Fielding had the habit of replaying such scenes in his mind,
agonizing over how ineffectually he had stated his case, murmuring retorts he
should have made at the time but had not.
The argument had been the result of weeks of frustration. Fielding didn't like
arguments, not ones outside the realm of physics, anyway. He'd put off the
meeting until the last possible moment. He pottered around his office,
pondering one of the central riddles of quantum physics: how two particles
fired simultaneously from the same source could arrive at the same destination
at the same instant, even though one had to travel ten times as far as the
other. It was like two 747s flying from New York to Los Angeles—one flying
direct and the other having to fly south to Miami before turning west to Los
Angeles—yet both touching down at LAX at the same moment. The 747 on the
direct route flew at the speed of light, yet the plane that had to detour over
Miami still reached L.A. at the same instant. Which meant that the second
plane had flown faster than the speed of light. Which meant that Einstein's
general theory of relativity was flawed. Possibly. Fielding spent a great deal
of time thinking about this problem.
He lit another cigarette and thought about the letter he'd FedExed to David
Tennant. It didn't say enough. Not nearly. But it would have to do until they
met at Nags Head. Tennant would be working a few steps up the hall from him
all afternoon, but he might as well be in Fiji. No square foot of the Trinity
complex was free of surveillance and recording devices. Tennant would get the
letter this afternoon, if no one intercepted it. To prevent this, Fielding had
instructed his wife to drop it at a FedEx box inside the Durham post office,
beyond the sight line of anyone following her from a distance. That was all
the spouses usually got—random surveillance from cars—but you never knew.
Tennant was Fielding's only hope. Tennant knew the president. He'd had
cocktails in the White House, anyway. Fielding had won the Nobel in 1998, but
he'd never been invited to 10 Downing Street. Never would be, in all