
performed as long as he could remember, a calming, stilling exercise that never failed to put his mind and
body at ease. He spread all of his fingers, seven on each hand, until the tips formed a half-circle. His
hands shook. Then, after deep breaths, they relaxed. The circle has something to do with it, he
thought, as his heart thumped a little less loudly in his chest.
But don't get too damned calm . . . I have to get down what I just dreamed! On the desk was a
ragged spiral notebook, a remnant from his junior year at high school, that was his dream journal. I have
to start now. Before it goes away.
With a Bic pen, he started writing:
Fear, he wrote, is far more intense during sleep. You are completely helpless, and a tiny part of your
brain knows that when you're under . . .
He paused, feeling vulnerable, and considered striking out what he had written. Then left it as is. No
one will read this anyway.
The Bic scratched away. I saw the straw tents tonight, but what I thought were teepees are actually
houses, some pretty big. Rocks made up the walls in places, and in others it looked sort of like a basket,
with stuff woven in between timbers. It seemed like each family had their own hut. I was part of the big
family, where the chief was, but I didn't live in his house. The chief was my uncle or something.
Also, some of the strange sounding words. Here are some of them: Ma ha, hoo lin, iffy,
anoooin, tarn, danann . . . and Ayver.
He stared at that last one, knowing it meant something, a rather important something. The word
brought erotic images to mind. The ache in his loins drove home how important this word was.
A word . . . or a name? he thought. Moving on, before the dream was completely gone, he wrote
down what he could, in the language he possessed. The people are like Indians, but they are white. Very
white. With long hair, beards, and they are big. I am big, too, but I'm still a child? I guess I was. Their
shields are metal, not buffalo hide or wood (well, some of them were, with long pointy things like
bullhorns running lengthwise) but they don't have many bows and arrows, mostly spears. And the metal is
strange, kind of yellowish but light, so it can't be gold. They don't even have toilets. They must be poor.
The metal makes a strange sound when things hit it . . . like spears and clubs and stuff. Then—
It stopped there. All he could remember was now on the paper, the rest dissolving in his brain like
sugar in hot coffee. His eyes tracked back to the one word. Ayver. Is it a word, or a name?
Dobie was staring at the page as lightning ripped through the sky. Then the lamp went out.
"Aw shit," he said to the darkness. He was used to losing power during a storm. Dobie's
neighborhood was a confusing landscape of old frame houses, machine shops, small factories, and an
abundance of do not block driveway signs. Lining the main artery of Charles Page Boulevard were beer
bars, cheap motels, and large angry dogs of no particular breed barking through flimsy, sheet metal
fences. Whatever primeval network of wires brought electricity to this forgotten area north of downtown
was probably so old it couldn't stand up to a stiff breeze, and on most occasions it didn't.
In the silence he listened to the echoes of his dream.
Is something outside? Thunder pounded the sky again, this time a long, piercing rip, the kind that
makes you hold your breath until the inevitable sledgehammer pounding, announcing lightning contact with
some unlucky point on the ground.
Drums, chanting, drums, more chanting . . . It was coming up the stairs.
Then it was gone.
The lights came back on as he stood, and he found himself so light-headed dizzy he thought he was
going to be sick. Then the nausea passed.
What the hell was that? he thought as he reset the flashing clock for 4 a.m., the time on his watch,
and set the alarm for 8:45. At 9:00 he had to be at work at the Mega Burger just down the street.
I'm imagining shit again.