
shaking now, not with fear, but with exhaustion. She was so weary she failed
to notice the little circle of three or four bandits that had formed around
her, and that she was the only Shin'a'in still fighting. He made a pass;
before she had time to realize it was merely a feint, he'd gotten inside her
guard and swatted her to the ground as the flat of his blade connected with
the side of her head, the edges cutting into her scalp, searing like hot
irons. He'd swung the blade full-force-she fought off unconsciousness as her
hands reflexively let her weapons fall and she collapsed. Half-stunned, she
tried to punch, kick, and bite (in spite of nausea and a dizziness that kept
threatening to overwhelm her): he began battering at her face and head with
heavy, massive fists.
He connected one time too many, and she felt her legs give out, her arms fall
helplessly to her sides. He laughed, then threw her to the floor of the tent,
inches away from the body of one of her brothers. She felt his hands tearing
off her breeches; she tried to get her knee into his groin, but the last of
her strength was long gone. He laughed again and settled his hands almost
lovingly around her neck and began to squeeze. She clawed at the hands, but he
was too strong; nothing she did made him release that ever-tightening grip.
She began to thrash as her chest tightened and her lungs cried out for air.
Her head seemed about to explode, and reality narrowed to the desperate
struggle for a single breath. At last, mercifully, blackness claimed her even
as he began to thrust himself brutally into her.
The only sound in the violated tent was the steady droning of flies. Tarma
opened her right eye-the left one was swollen shut-and stared dazedly at the
ceiling. When she tried to swallow, her throat howled in protest, she gagged,
and nearly choked. Whimpering, she rolled onto one side. She found she was
staring into the sightless eyes of her baby sister, as flies fed greedily at
the pool of blood congealing beneath the child's head.
She vomited up what little there was in her stomach, and nearly choked to
death in the process. Her throat was swollen almost completely shut.
She dragged herself to her knees, her head spinning dizzily, her stomach
threatening to empty itself again of what it didn't contain. As she looked
around her, and her mind took in the magnitude of disaster, something within
her parted with a nearly audible snap.
Every member of the Clan, from the oldest gray-hair to the youngest infant,
had been brutally and methodically slaughtered. The sight was more than her
dazed mind could bear. Most of her ran screaming to hide in a safe, dark,
mental corner; what was left coaxed her body to its feet.
A few rags of her vest hung from her shoulders; there was blood running down
her thighs and her loins ached sharply, echoing the pounding pain in her head.
More blood had dried all down one side, some of it from the cut along her
ribs, some that of her foes or her Clansfolk. Her hand rose of its own accord
to her temple and found her long hair sticky and hard with dried blood matting
it into clumps. The pain of her head and the nausea that seemed linked with it
overwhelmed any other hurt, but as her hand drifted absently over her face, it
felt strange, swollen and puffy. Had she been able to see it, she would not
have recognized even her own reflection, her face was so battered. The part of
her that was still thinking sent her body to search for something to cover her
nakedness. She found a pair of breeches-not her own, they were much too big-
and a vest, both flung into corners as worthless. Her eyes slid unseeing over
the huddled, nude bodies that might have been the previous wearers. Then the
thread of direction sent her to retrieve the clan banner from where it still
hung on the centerpole.