
They came to me with food and drink and cloth, begging me to spare the lives of their loved ones." She
paused, panting for breath as painful memories assailed her. Fools. Sorry fools. Those who were bound
to die, died anyway, despite my silence. When that happened, I tom them it was because the gods willed
it, and they had caused me to utter the doomed one~ name in dreams. How couM anyone prove
otherwise?
Who wouM stand against the way of the blessed Balance? They did not understand, and I let them live
on in ignorance because it suited me, and because it let me lead a life of comfort, plenty, respect.
"Nothing can justify what I have done," she wheezed, shaking her head. "Nothing!" "You are not
responsible for what others choose to believe." The maiden slid her arm under Se'ar's back and tenderly
lowered her to the pallet once more, feeling the nubs of her spine poking against the ageslackened skin.
The old woman gazed up into the maiden's tranquil face and sighed. "You are a good gift, Ma'adrys. I
Wish I could tell you how often I have prayed to the Lady of the Balances to work her holy
transformation on you and make you my own blood. But she would not hear the prayers of a cheat and a
trickster." ,It doesn't matter," the maiden comforted her.
"Even though I am not your blood kin, in all these years you have never begrudged me a single mouthful
of your bread." The old woman sighed. "I only hope that you haven't suffered for sharing it. It was
contaminated with the taint of how I earned it. Oh Ma'adrys, what if that's it? What if that's what's kept
you from your :heart's desire? What if that's the flaw that Bilik saw in you when he forbid you tom?"
"Hush," the girl repeated, dabbing at the old woman's waxen face with the damp cloth. "Don't upset
yourself. That's over and done with." "But you're such a clever girl, such a good girl, you shouldn't be
excluded just because--" "Mother Se'ar, what good will it do either of us knowing why my petition was
refused?" the girl asked quite reasonably. "It won't change the way things are." "True, true." The old
woman's voice trailed away like water trickling through stones. Her eyelids lowered. It seemed that she
slept. The maiden settled back to oversee her rest.
The old woman's words came suddenly, taking the girl by surprise. "Maybe it wasn't my fault after all,"
Se'ar murmured, her eyes still closed. She spoke as if she were alone in the hut with none but herself to
hear. "The girl's kind, yes, but headstrong, too bold about speaking up to the men, too demanding. Well,
who can hold her to blame for that? Father lost in the winter storms before the Feast of Flowers, mother
died birthing her, poor youngling left to run wild.
Not that she ever had a proper mother to start, that one. Easy to see where the daughter's strange ways
come from. Yes, everyone knew. Where that mother of hers came from, I'll never know. Mad, most
likely, and driven out of her own village by folk with more sense than we ever had. All her high-sounding
talk, all just ravings, ravings. Offensive to the Balance, her life thrown back into the scales to pay for her
words, poor soul. Poor mad soul." Beside the deathbed, the maiden Ma'adrys sat back on her heels, her
back unnaturally stiff, her face drained of all expression. She tried to exclude the old woman's babbling
from her mind, but she could not: It was nothing she hadn't heard before, all the village talk of her dead
mother. As a child she'd gotten into more than a few fist fights with the other children when they'd taunted
her by repeating the things they'd heard their parents say. She'd lost more battles than she'd won, and the
elders had always punished her afterwards for the few fights she did win. When she was a little older,
she'd tried to train herself to play deaf to the gossip and the snide remarks, the whispers she always
heard behind her back, but it was beyond her best efforts. In time, she'd learned that there was only one
safe thing to do when someone-- even a dying woman no longer responsible for her own
ramblings--spoke of her mother.