
Timberlake's weakness -- his inability to kill the OMC even when it meant
saving the ship with its thousands of helpless lives -- had almost killed
them. And all the man could feel now was shame . . . and fear.
There had been no doubt about what had to be done. The OMC had gone mad, a
wild, runaway consciousness. It had been a sick ball of gray matter whose
muscles turned every servo on the ship into a murder weapon, who stared out at
them with madness from every sensor, who raged gibberish at them from every
vocoder.
No, there had been no doubt -- not with three of their number murdered -- and
the only wonder was that they had been allowed to destroy it.
Perhaps it wanted to die, Bickel thought.
And he wondered if that had been the fate of the six other Project ships which
had vanished into nothingness without a trace.
Did their OMCs run wild? Did their umbilicus crews fail, when it was kill or
be killed?
A tear began sliding down Timberlake's left cheek. To Bickel, that was the
final blow. Some of his anger returned. He faced Timberlake: "What do we do
now, Captain?"
The title's irony was not lost on either of Bickel's companions. Flattery
started to reply, thought better of it. If the starship Earthling could be
said to have a captain (discounting an in-service Organic Mental Core), then
unspoken agreement gave that title to an umbilicus crew's life-systems
engineer. None of them, though, had ever used the word officially.
At last Timberlake met Bickel's stare, but all he said was: "You know why I
couldn't bring myself to do it."
Bickel continued to study Timberlake. What shabby conceit had given them this
excuse for a life-systems engineer? Once the umbilicus crew had numbered six
-- the three here plus Ship Nurse Maida Lon Blaine, Tool Specialist Oscar Lon
Anderson, and Biochemist Sam Lon Scheler. Now, Blaine, Anderson, and Scheler
were dead -- Scheler's exploded corpse jamming an access tube on the aft
perimeter, Anderson strangled by a rogue sphincter lock, and lovely Maida
mangled by runaway cargo.
Bickel blamed most of the tragedy on Timberlake. If the damn fool had only
taken the ruthless but obvious step at the first sign of trouble! There had
been plenty of warning -- with the first two of the ship's three OMCs going
catatonic. The seat of trouble had been obvious. And the symptoms -- exactly
the same symptoms that had preceded the breakdown of the old Artificial
Consciousness project back on earth -- insane destruction of people and
materiel. But Tim had refused to see it. Tim had blathered about the
sanctity of all life.
Life, hah! Bickel thought. They were all of them -- even the colonists down
in the hyb tanks -- expendable biopsy material, Doppelgangers grown in
gnotobiotic sterility in the Moonbase. "Untouched by human hands." That had
been their private joke. They had known their Earth-born teachers only as
voices and doll-size images on cathode screens of the base intercom system --
and only occasionally through the triple glass at the locks that sealed off
the sterile creche. They had emerged from the axolotl tanks to the padded
metal claws of nursemaids that were servo extensors of Moonbase personnel,
forever barred from intimate contact with those they served.